After such a long wait, finally TISS results were out yesterday.... I got through both the courses I had applied to...but still dont know why i am not feeling too happy about the result.
There is a lot of confusion in my mind regarding what to do...its not about choosing between the courses, but it is the confusion regarding my career...what exactly i want to do in my life. Do i want to be a special educator or do i want to explore more about my career options..?? Do i want to be just restricted to one field and grow within that field itself, or do i want to be a jack of all traits...
There is such a huge turmoil going inside my head regarding this issue.... also there are other smaller issues bothering me...regarding change...change in terms of shifting to a completely new city, staying alone, looking for an accomodation,, change in terms of going back to student life...
I do realise that TISS is a lifetime opportunity...which i would never get back, if i do not opt for it now, but then what will be the future prospects in terms of the field...I do not want to stand at the same intersection two years from now, where again i have to ask myself about what next.
Though after coming into the professional field, i always thought that i do need some more time before i start working...i still need to learn a lot, both in terms of subjective knowledge as well as well as i need to grow as a person, be more mature to handle decisions and take responsibilities.
But now that i come under the category of employed, i need to look at not only about myself, but also people around me..be it the school management, my department, my students and my family...and its getting too difficult for me to come to a final decision. At one hand i am getting an opportunity to get back to the student life, which i always wanted...and on the other hand, i have such a huge opportunity to have hands on experience in the field of special education and learn side by side.
I know that right now i have a win- win situation...and the choice i wud make wud be very close to the one i will leave..... I just hope whatever decison i take, I do not regret onto it later in my life.
3 comments:
You have already taken the decision now..don't look back...don't think about future..just be happy now..Present mein rehna hai(remeber the sutra..;)).....its time to spend some happy moments here with family and ur NCR friends now..so chill maro..n full-on masti karo..
BeSt oF lUcK..Hp u take a WiSe dEsIcIoN!!! Tc
you think too much.. dont! its often that you should just understand what decisions in life would give you more choices later on and what narrows them.... narrow when you are sure you want it ... broaden when you are not...
late in commenting but yeah this is valid throughout life :)
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